Happy Mother’s Day?

Let me start this by saying I love my kids.  I love them very much.  I would be devastated without them.  But I wanted to take a moment to share how hard I have found motherhood.  I am hoping that by sharing my feelings, other moms might not feel guilty for not loving it all the time.

Recently I have found being a mom very overwhelming.  It seems to have gotten harder as the kids have gotten older.  My two boys are now 9 and 6. I find dealing with their school totally overwhelming (both have struggled more than I ever expected).  I feel like I don’t have enough time to help them as best as I want.  Also, I don’t want to do homework at night with them. I am tired and I just want to relax.

I am tired of being responsible for keeping track of everything. I am tired of being asked for stuff constantly.  I am tired of being a  mom.  It is something I feel horribly guilty about.  I wish I felt differently, but there are many days when I go running that I just want to keep running, and running, and running…

I signed up for this job willingly.  There really is no way out.  I do have days and moments that I enjoy it.  It just is not the norm for me.  I use my training as an escape from my frustrations with being a mom.  My feelings about motherhood will change at some point.  I just really wanted to share this so that if any other moms felt the same way, they can know they are not alone.

8 comments

  1. Girl…you and me both. I watched an Oprah show once where a woman confessed, “I hate being a mom and I feel so guilty because everyone around me loves it”. Then the next day on Oprah there was massive hate mail towards this lady and only a handful that agreed with her. I was right there on her side. I love my daughter with all my heart but dang if I have a hard time remembering to floss my own teeth, and I really hate people infringing on my “Cindy” time. Just when I think I have her all studied and ready for math she fails her spelling, and I think, “I can’t believe I forgot about spelling.” So then the next week I am on top of it, spelling and math, spelling and math…..and then BAM…ingrown toe nail cause I forgot to tell her to clip her nails….ok spelling, math and nails, spelling math and nails…..BAM yeast infection…shoot I forgot to tell her not to wash herself with perfume soap….well you get the point lost notes from the teacher, piano lessons, math, spelling, volunteer, field trips, Colonial Day at school, teacher appreciation day…and not to forget all the holidays and birthdays, need to teach manners, respect, hard work….it is just too much sometimes and I only have one…so Happy Mother’s Day Becca you do not stand alone and I commend you for having more than 1. This is not a job for the weak hearted for sure.

      1. Oh yeah and I forgot about the constant disappointment in their little faces when you say “no” to every crazy idea that pops into their sweet heads (I type as my daughter reads over my shoulder with a look of disappointment that I am talking about her)…..

  2. Thank you so much for this post! I’m not a mom yet, I want desperately to be a mom, but it also terrifies me. I’m sure I will experience what you are going through and it’s nice to hear you say it, I know I won’t be alone 🙂

  3. You are so not alone. I have 1 son who is 13 and I really have come to the realization that it’s the school part that is the hardest. They pile so much crap on them before they are ready….they are not capable of organizing, managing and handling the volume that is expected. It falls on us and we end up having to repeat every grade. I too resent it and am ashamed to say, a times, take it out on my son. The option would be to let him flounder and fail and that really is not an option either….Take heart in knowing you are not alone. I have this conversation with other “moms” (ps, why don’t the dads care as much???) and it’s the same thing everywhere…..we’ll get through it…albiet with high excessively high cortisol levels, but we will get through!!

  4. You are definitely not alone. My kids are my world. But you know what? It’s hard. It’s hard to be the one to do everything. Make dinner. Make their lunches. Make their doctors appointments. Remember to get gifts for the birthday parties they attend. All the little things, as well as the big things. Just remember that it goes so quickly….this will pass. I know I for one will be sad when it does.

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